Hyattenism

So I'm turning twenty five this year and you know what? I don't have any idea what is going on with my life right now. I feel like a FAILURE sometimes. I feel like I was just breathing to live... There are times I ask myself, what have you been doing all these years? I don't know, really. But all I have in my mind is that I want freedom, peace and all the stuff that makes me feel alive.  Back when I was in college, I imagined my life to be a young successful independent lady with a house and a car at the age of twenty five. I studied and finished college with awards. Got a job few months after I graduated. But look at me now, I am near to that goal age and I have nothing. Just NOTHING. No savings, no car and no house. All my dreams back then seems to be easy to reach but that's just what I thought. Because as I age, I came to learn and realized that life is not supposed to be all figured out. Why? Because that is how we should live. We live to struggle, to m...

Have you ever had those pages in your life where you felt like a paper? Like you're being dragged by the wind and you just go along with it because you feel nothing . I don't know if it's just me but that's what I am feeling lately. I felt like everyday is just a routine, as if it's a page on a book that I don't want to read because it's boring or there's nothing interesting in it. I wake up every morning with no excitement at all because I knew what's going to happen the whole day. Get ready and go to work, then after work, I just went home and that's how my day goes. Boring isn't? But hey, I am still blessed with what I have because during these times, it is hard to find a job, reality speaking. Although, I am fully aware of how lucky I am to have a job this pandemic I still have this episodes in my life where I feel like there's an empty space inside me. I felt like there's more I can do and I want to do. I feel suffocated and disa...